Rise With the Sun

Good morning my friends! Today is a brand new day! A new chance, a new opportunity to go out and make a difference in someone’s life. And that someone is YOU!

I was journaling this morning and I had this, not an idea but more like a feeling come over me that life is not meant to be or feel like a ball and chain. It’s not meant to be bogged down in responsibilities, chores, stress, and anxiety of trying to get everything on our “to-do” list done in a day.

Life is a gift. It’s not promised, it’s not guaranteed. But if the only thing in life that you’re taking time to notice is how much time you DON’T actually have enough of in a day – then I think, scratch that, I know we’re doing it wrong.

Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we put these ridiculous unwarranted accountabilities on ourselves? Day in, day out. We expect ourselves to be held to such high expectations that we would never place on others, so why do we do it to ourselves?

It’s time we put a stop to this, it’s time to take a stand. But how?

Well that is the $250,000 question, isn’t it? The truth is friends, I haven’t a bloody clue. It’s different for everyone. What drives Joe doesn’t necessarily drive Susan. So what is it that drives you?

I’m 50 years old and I’m still unable to answer that question myself. If I have to choose something right here and now, I’d say it’s my need to please others. I need to remove stress from their lives even at the expense of my own feelings and sanity. But that’s just how I feel I’m built.

It drives my husband crazy, to be brutally honest. He gets so frustrated with me that I never sit down because I’m always up doing something for someone. And I get it, I would probably be just as frustrated if the shoe was on the other foot. He loves me, so he wants to see me relaxed, doing something I enjoy, having fun, and enjoying life.

Instead, he sees me exhausted, looking haggard (well I am 50, so natch) and yes, I’ll admit it, depressed. I feel like most days my life is completely spinning out of control. So much to do in a single day and never enough time to do it in.

So instead of feeling in control and dictating which way your life is heading, you end up feeling like you’re caught in the under toe and just being drug along the sandy bottom, picking up bumps, bruises, and scraps every step of the way. And when you finally make it to bed for the day you drop like a stone only to get up the next day and start it all over again.

But why do we do it? Why do we never take time out to look around, watch the sun come up, or even just stop to admire it for 5 damn minutes?

So why don’t we treat ourselves as good as we treat others? It’s supposed to start from within right?

With that being said, I challenge you all today. Start with today, one day at a time. Take a moment each day to find one thing for YOU! Just you! It doesn’t make you selfish or greedy but it will certainly help in shifting things in your life to start appreciating those small pockets of moments.

I admit I haven’t been very “Barbi’s Bright Side” lately. It seems that attitude went on lockdown shortly after the rest of the world did.

We have all seen some shit now! I’m sure it’s all bothered and affected you like it has me but it’s time we stop giving in to the foolishness going on around us.

Seize the day! Take a small piece of the gift we’re given everyday – just for yourself! You deserve it!

I love you!